Is Manifestation Inevitable?

My fridge magnet for years.

Deep longings or desires will try their darnedest to manifest! 

I wanted a playhouse quite badly as a child. I was always making forts and “homes” - under tables, in the woods, in the yard.  My stepdad made an effort to build one for my sister and I. He bought an old rustic wooden truck canopy off somebody. His idea was to build some walls to set it onto to create a playhouse. However, in an attempt to lift it up to the right height, it fell over and broke. He never got around to doing more with it. My sister and I would crawl under it in the grass, but it was too low to even sit up in so needless to say, it didn’t fulfill the desire. But I continued to create little homes in the woods around us, at the neighbors house, on the beach etc. I loved making “home”!

In my adulthood I had visions of creating a little private camping compound, each small cabin with its own theme, shared space in the center, where people could come for a little get away or an entire group for a retreat or reunion.

When empty nesting happened, and the house we lived in seemed dark and lonely, I had a very strong desire to build or buy, a smaller home where I could see more sky. But why would we leave our nice family home? And my husband worked way too much to even think about tackling a construction project. There was around 20 acres for sale not far from where we lived that I had visions of building a variety of small and hopefully affordable houses on. While I did look into it, I also did a lot of “who am I to think I have the knowledge or tools to do this!?” and so I didn’t pursue it and the acreage sold. 

I also really enjoyed the idea of building an adult tree house on our property. At the time the price tag for such a “frivolous” thing was not something that I could consider discussing with my partner for more than a minute. I also feared it might be my way of wanting to escape or hide from the troubles in our relationship. 

Fast forward several years, instigated by an impending divorce and coupled with a housing crisis and inability to get a mortgage, I bought undeveloped land and purchased a tiny house and moved into that as a stepping stone along the path to building a new home with cashed out investment funds. I really loved living tiny and even at the time considered it the playhouse I never got as a kid! In my 30’s I had been collecting magazine articles and images of pre-fabricated homes I liked, as that type of building process seemed really neat to me. But then kind of forgot about it. Add to this the strong desire and knowing that I needed some more light (not living quite so deep in the woods) and here I currently sit in my new pre-fab built house, with a ton of windows and expansive vistas of sky! My desire was stronger than my hesitancy and fear and it found a way to arrive. It was not easy, nor always pleasant. But I am here. It seems it was going to happen one way or another. 

Another fun fact, when exploring builders, it was suggested I contact a pre-fab builder in OR, which turned out to have been the founder of Method Homes - the builder of several of the homes that I had saved the articles about all those years ago!

The journey is part of the learning and we are here to experience things. I am not suggesting that taking the shortest route to everything we desire is always best. However, I wonder how it would have transpired differently had I felt more empowered to explore those desires and knowings earlier? I will never know, but I can remember that my desires are important and deserve attention. Perhaps my marriage would have been less of a struggle not more, like I feared, if I had been more adamant about those desires. After all that, we are together again, with our love stronger than ever. Could that painful chapter been less so?
I didn’t really consider myself creative, yet looking back, I was creative in my home making. I am a Cancer, and family and home are of ultimate importance for Cancers’. I underestimated the gift I had to offer to my family and myself. Creating a safe, loving, comfortable and beautiful home is not trivial! Funny how I discounted it all those years. 

Other dreams I have had include a family or friends compound - where we share gardens, support and even meals at times, but have our own space as well. This is not a new concept or anything, I just love the idea. It would be wise of me to not ignore this desire if it persists. If I don’t act on it, I now see that life will transpire to get that created, in some form or another. And I would rather it not be unpleasant circumstances that get me to finally do it! Maybe it wont be a family compound, maybe it will be little rental cabins, or even treehouses! 

What are some of your reoccurring desires, longings, ideas, wishes? Those that continue, maybe with a variety of options, to come up in your mind. Pay attention to them. What about those are the most appealing? What might they be calling you toward? What does that desire feel like in your body? Can you narrow down the desire more? It is less about the physical manifestation and more about the feeling in your heart that it creates. What childhood desires can you see manifested in your adult life? Share yours with me or a friend! Write in your journal or open yourself to deeper understanding inside a meditation.

Don’t let your fear slow those strong desires down. They want to come to fruition and the more you can open to possibilities and the less you ignore them, the smoother the path toward the inevitable. After all you are here to create a life you wanted when you decided to come into this physical body. Diminish the minds resistance of the creative flow that you already are in order to facilitate a smoother more enjoyable life for yourself, your family and all the lives you will touch. I thank you in advance! 

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