I wouldn't want to be anyone else!

During my morning meditation this morning this spontaneous thought arose: “I wouldn’t want to be anybody else but me! I love me!” Wow! Where did that come from I wondered?  It seemed to come from deep within me.

But really, even though there are things about other people or their lives that I think are super cool, is there really anyone else that I would switch places with - after all I would have to take it all on - their past, their present, their future, I couldn’t just pick the good things about another’s life.  And the truthful answer was no, there is not! 

I admire others. I might love what they have, or what they are doing. I might like their style, their looks, their talents, wisdom or connections (social media makes that even more pronounced) but would I take their entire life? Their kids or the fact that they don’t have kids, their stresses and challenges along with what I really like in their life? No, I decided. I really like my life. My kiddos, my house, my place in the world. Even if currently I am in hot and humid Iowa, helping my Mom recover from surgery after a fall. Here for the entire month of July. This was not how I thought my summer would go, especially after being on vacation for half of June!  But what a blessing to be able to help my Mom! To be with her, to be in her neat house, and spend so much one on one time with her, not going going going, like our usual pace, but taking things one day at a time. Perhaps the Universe conspired with my higher self, to get me here, since I had said in early spring, that I was determined go and visit my Mom this summer or fall! as It had been two years since I had seen her for her 80th birthday. Plus the following happened in early June; I smelled my Mom’s house one day while at my own house. You know how people’s houses often have a certain smell? Her’s is nice and I was caught by surprise when twice, just before her fall, I had the sense of her home and thought I caught a whiff of how her house smells. That has never happened before. Curious!

I believe this has all gone smoother because of the attitude I have chosen. Gratitude. Even if better circumstances would be preferable, I am here and able to support her and keep her from needing to recover in a nursing home which might have depressed her so much she never came out. She has always stated how she never wants to be in one, and I can’t say I blame her. Now I know there are some really nice ones out there, but those can be pricey and not likely a financial reality for her. I see this all as a blessing and not a burden. It is the push she likely needed to get serious about selling her house and moving closer to me. 

A client recently went to help her mom out of state when her mom was diagnosed with cancer. I thought, wow, how neat of her to drop everything and go to her mom. Especially after I found out how long she was there for! I thought, how did she do it? Here I am doing it, and I am feeling blessed. I did not expect that. But I feel calm about it all and appreciating all I can about the situation. I just don't allow myself to go to the guilt of stranding my retail manager or abandoning a regular client I see two times a week. Because everyone knows, these things happen. 

I am grateful for my ability to stay in a higher vibration during this time, and not get caught up in the unfortunateness of it. It is a choice. How we choose to look at something, is a choice. Doesn’t always feel like we have much choice, some situations seem so obviously “bad” but truly, it is a choice. After all, we can all recall examples of a “bad” thing that turned out to be a really “good” thing after all!